So, my "mother" has done it all. Has 5 kids, and zero relationship with any...... She recently decided to try and write a book..... And here are the goodies she wrote......the rough draft dug out of the trash... I HOPE SHE READS THIS AND IS PROUD OF HERSELF.....
TITLE: "The unwraveling of what once was never a family"
Why do couples choose to have kids?? They are ungrateful, selfish, they lie, expect to get everything they want, feel you are responsible for everythung that happens, never satisfied, think they are in control, scream about what they want or don't get, make you feel guilty about everything, argue all the time, sneaky, don't work, don't pay... Eventually they are alone, they made the breakup for selfish purposes. Lie about eachother. They are gullible. Lie about sperm donor. The cost of believing them causes the reality that they are just like them. No money-no life-eventually no feelings.....
I wish I never had kids. Free of worry. Free to live the life you always wanted but somehow you thought children would bring happiness when they only bring sad memories. Not all families have this (my parents). Then you cant believe you don't even consider your own flesh and blood as your family. And then the cycle continues..they will live in grief with no one to turn to who cares anymore.... Surprise!!! You want them gone to live what they created for themselves. Somehow that feels like injustice... you welcome it.. you can't wait to see them in someone else's life- not yours. They will be miserable with kids alone and the cycle continues.. But I can stop my part now. I do have another family and I'm happy. Guilty? Not at all...It's a freedom like no other.. Is that wrong? I don't think so... Because I am the one who has it all. I am so glad. I will get to be happy with my family. I'm almost there. MY FAMILY loves and accepts me. They will help and the children are really not a thought, especially when thay are gone. Hard to say, but 90% there. Change my name. Almost done. I will be unknown to THOSE children. Never part of that messed up family. Will they pay? Yes, forever. You can love your children but you don't have to like them or be in their life. Married to two most worthless men. 5 most ungrateful children. A little sad, but 3 of 5, I could care less. 2 of 5 almost there, maybe already there. Feels like it. We all reap what we sow. I am now and they will forever. My job is done. I've given it all except my life. My life is all I care about now. That's good for me. I am not a mother. They are all dead to me. I will have it soon. They gave sorrow, they have earned it and its just starting . That is all I care about. Have dogs. not children. They love you and you love them unconditionally......
I thought I always wanted children and grandchildren , I didnt know how lonely that can be in your life. Better to be alone. Nothing more lonely than a life with 5 children who hate you . Should have known. Feel stupid. But will be there in a couple weeks. My turn to ruin their lives like they ruined mine. I will have one night in jail, they will have years. Am sorry or sad? No
Congratulations Sharon!! You have successfully killed any chance at a relationship with your children. We love eachother, and have eachother through it all. Thank you for having us... We will make Grandma and Grandpa proud.... May you find comfort and peace in your last days. May God grant you the Serenity....
