Mother's Day

Mother's Day.
To me this means very little (in regards to my own mother). To social media this means everything. Reading all of the fake ass, feel good comments people make about their moms when they treat them like crap the rest of the year. The cutesy sayings and little heart emojis. I don't have a mom to speak of. Upon reflection I realize this is because I am not fake. I didn't paste a fake heart emoji over the reality and pain. I address the things that need addressed. This makes me have fewer familial relationships than most. But, I don't do fake. Relationship or not. I'll take it or leave it... whatever is left is at least REAL. Which is more than can be said for all the stupid, fake, annoying "best mommy ever" claims bombarding my social media. Get real people. Rant over.

The Uterus Rented to me for 9 months....

So, my "mother" has done it all. Has 5 kids, and zero relationship with any...... She recently decided to try and write a book..... And here are the goodies she wrote......the rough draft dug out of the trash... I HOPE SHE READS THIS AND IS PROUD OF HERSELF.....

TITLE: "The unwraveling of what once was never a family"
Why do couples choose to have kids?? They are ungrateful, selfish, they lie, expect to get everything they want, feel you are responsible for everythung that happens, never satisfied, think they are in control, scream about what they want or don't get, make you feel guilty about everything, argue all the time, sneaky, don't work, don't pay... Eventually they are alone, they made the breakup for selfish purposes. Lie about eachother. They are gullible. Lie about sperm donor. The cost of believing them causes the reality that they are just like them. No money-no life-eventually no feelings.....

I wish I never had kids. Free of worry. Free to live the life you always wanted but somehow you thought children would bring happiness when they only bring sad memories. Not all families have this (my parents). Then you cant believe you don't even consider your own flesh and blood as your family. And then the cycle continues..they will live in grief with no one to turn to who cares anymore.... Surprise!!! You want them gone to live what they created for themselves. Somehow that feels like injustice... you welcome it.. you can't wait to see them in someone else's life- not yours. They will be miserable with kids alone and the cycle continues.. But I can stop my part now. I do have another family and I'm happy. Guilty? Not at all...It's a freedom like no other.. Is that wrong? I don't think so... Because I am the one who has it all. I am so glad. I will get to be happy with my family. I'm almost there. MY FAMILY loves and accepts me. They will help and the children are really not a thought, especially when thay are gone. Hard to say, but 90% there. Change my name. Almost done. I will be unknown to THOSE children. Never part of that messed up family. Will they pay? Yes, forever. You can love your children but you don't have to like them or be in their life. Married to two most worthless men. 5 most ungrateful children. A little sad, but 3 of 5, I could care less. 2 of 5 almost there, maybe already there. Feels like it. We all reap what we sow. I am now and they will forever. My job is done. I've given it all except my life. My life is all I care about now. That's good for me. I am not a mother. They are all dead to me. I will have it soon. They gave sorrow, they have earned it and its just starting . That is all I care about. Have dogs. not children. They love you and you love them unconditionally......
I thought I always wanted children and grandchildren , I didnt know how lonely that can be in your life. Better to be alone. Nothing more lonely than a life with 5 children who hate you . Should have known. Feel stupid. But will be there in a couple weeks. My turn to ruin their lives like they ruined mine. I will have one night in jail, they will have years. Am sorry or sad? No

Congratulations Sharon!! You have successfully killed any chance at a relationship with your children. We love eachother, and have eachother through it all. Thank you for having us... We will make Grandma and Grandpa proud.... May you find comfort and peace in your last days. May God grant you the Serenity....

Who are these people? School Nazi's?

Who are these people? For real???? Parents can no longer excuse their own children's absences? What is this? I can carry, birth, and be trusted with caring for all of my child's needs.... But I can't excuse them from a day of school? What the hell is that all about? Kids are only allowed 5 unexcused absences a year, and every other absence needs a doctor's note?...... And let's not talk about Registration Day. We waited in a line outside in the 100 degree weather for over an hour to finally make it to the front of the line and the possibility of air conditioning.....and.... DENIED! You are not allowed past the middle school Hitler (who's desk set up blocks the entrance) without the appropriate paperwork showing that your child has had the appropriate immunizations. I literally had to stand to the side, call my doctors office, and have them fax a statement proclaiming that I did indeed have an appointment for her to receive these shots...... Then, and only then were we granted the holy access to register for the 7th grade.... THAT SHIT IS RIDICULOUS!!!

GRANDFATHER

If you learn nothing else from me....... If you take nothing away from this blog but this important point......... If you care for me or for human life in general.... Please..PLEASE... PLEASE DO NOT EVER USE THE WORDS GRANDFATHER AND PENIS IN THE SAME SENTENCE.....thank you.....i love you gramps, just sayin

Oregon, I hate you!!!

So, I have to drive from Boise, ID to Portland, OR..... 7 hour drive, right? Well, that's boring and I want to get there.. So I set my cruise control to 85 and off we go.... I get pulled over by a cop who's driving an undercover SUV. His question to me is... "Do you have any legal justification as to why you are not following the legally posted speed limit of 65?" That's a trick question.... Legal justification??? Is there such a thing as a legal justification to breaking the law? STUPID! Anyway, my ticket was supposed to be $474.00...... Let that sink in .... Almost $500 for SPEEDING!! Instead he was such a gem and gave me a ticket for ONLY $290.00. Thank you Sheriff Mitchell.. I shall forever be indebted to you... God Bless.... I HATE YOU RIGHT NOW OREGON!!!

The "begging" sign of the century... REALLY????

On the corner holding a sign today is a male (you have to earn the title of "man" in my mind). The sign states, "Newborn daughter at home struggling to survive. Need money". WHAT??? Back in the day dudes used to come up to your car and try to Windex your windshield for a quarter..... Now they stand on the corner, smoking a cig, getting a tan, with some CRAP sign. GO TO THE ER WITH YOUR DAUGHTER!!!

Really??

Don't ever use "All My Sons" as your moving company.. EVER.  Here's the lowdown..... My grandfather has AML (acute myeloid leukemia). Because of this we needed to move him out of the mountains and closer to our local cancer center. We hired All My Sons to come help us pack and move, with the agreement that they would be up to his cabin (1.5hrs of town)before 10:30am. In order to make this feasible, he spends the entire day before (until midnight) at the hospital getting transfused with blood and platelets. Because we need to be to cabin before movers, we leave Boise by 8:30am.
10:30? No movers... 11:00? No movers... Now mind you, we have moved all of the basics (including food) out a few weeks prior. We were coming back for kitchen items, a bed, and other non-essentials.. So, at this point we need to feed the gramps... So, we call the moving company to see what the delay is about. The OWNER states that the movers assigned to "our job" have just finished dropping off some furniture to "another job" and should be out to us in 1.5hrs. We decide to go get some lunch at a local restaurant. At this point my grandfather is HOT. We woke up early and had this all planned out to make the most of our time, and now had wasted 5 hours..... We take our time eating, and get back to the cabin, only to wait, and wait, and wait. Again I call the company to find out what the status was, only to be treated as though my time was not valuable, and "they should be there soon". But, an hour more passes, and they still have not shown. I call back again, just for the OWNER to ask, "What is the issue? Is there some sort of time constraint? They will be there and they will get the job done". When I tell them the time constraint is that I have children getting out of school that I need to get to, the OWNER says, "And are we moving you??" No, but you are moving my grandfather whom I am helping care for, and drove up here!!!! REALLY?? I tell him that I am ready to take gramps back down to town as he is tired and it has been a long day. He reminds me that my grandfather has a contract which his drivers are still able to fulfill.
Within a half hour (now its after 3), 2 drivers show up at the cabin. What a relief, right?? WRONG!! They get the basic info from us and go out to move truck. I walk outside and see that they have managed to get the truck stuck in the dirt. Not just stuck in the dirt, but stuck in the dirt SIDEWAYS, thus blocking us in from leaving (if we wanted/needed to) in any direction. I call the company AGAIN, and tell them that now their truck is stuck in our driveway. He suggests maybe we know somebody nearby that can pull the truck out. Once I make it clear that this is not our responsibility, he agrees to take care of it... I call my brother to come to the cabin, out of fear that I may need to get my grandpa out, and have no escape route...Shortly a tow truck arrives, and actually manages to pull the moving truck out. The driver decides to take the truck down the long drive, turn it around , and back it up the drive. While he is doing this, I am trying to calm my grandpa down, and reassuring him that we are now on the path to moving. Within seconds we look out the window and see the moving truck at the end of the drive with the hood popped. That clearly can't mean anything good... At this point, I am DONE. I call the OWNER and tell him I am taking my grandpa and we are going back to Boise. He actually LAUGHS at me and asks why?, as his movers are there and can still complete the job. I tell him we no longer want his movers to do any job, and ask what he would have his drivers do, as we are leaving and the cabin phone is the only source of communication up there..He actually insisted that we let his movers begin packing the house while he had a repair man come fix truck. HAHA!! What a joke!!He demanded payment from us for the time his movers were at the cabin. Nevermind that the only thing they did was try to fix the truck!!  At this point one of their movers had already used our phone to call his girlfriend and let her know that he was quitting his job with "All My Sons". We offered him a ride back to Boise in which he gratefully accepted. The other driver insisted on staying with the truck, as he feared losing his job. He finally agreed to let me take him to the closest gas station, where at least he would have access to a phone and food. We returned to Boise just before 8pm, with nothing accomplished, and no apology or understanding from "All My Sons".
I believe in Karma....